Peter Pan

So every one's telling us that we're at a crossroads in our lives.
Every thing's changing.
We're starting all new chapters in our lives.
It's exciting, terrifying, confusing and amazing all at the same time.
I don't even know what the heck a crossroads is, but it doesn't sound like something I want to do.
Throughout my childhood, I was so ready to be a grown-up, or at the very least a teenager.
Everything was going to be awesome.
I'd be able to drive, I'd have a smoking hot girlfriend, I'd be college-bound, if not already there, and everything would be easy, just like in my childhood, when my biggest concern and workload entailed finding the sickest hiding place for hide-and-go-seek.
But now that I'm here, it's not nearly so glamorous as it was in my daydreams.
My childhood fantasies never included struggling with drugs, alcohol, lust or my identity in Christ.
In my daydreams, I knew exactly who I was, and exactly who I wanted to be.
That's not the case, by any stretch of the imagination, now.
I want to go back to those days.
When my most difficult schoolwork was my times tables.
When I could spend the whole day organizing teams for the baseball battle royale that was supposed to go down at recess.
When the new "Pokemon" movie set to release in a few weeks was the biggest part of my life.
I want to go back to those days and be like peter pan; just never grow up.
I want to be a child forever.
No worries, no responsibilities.
It's pretty obvious that this teenage daydream is entirely illogical, as were my boyhood daydreams.
It's funny how we always seem to want something different from what we've already got.
As children, our number one desire is to be a "big kid" and then once we are a "big kid", we realize it's not all it's cracked up to be, and want our childhood innocence and naivety back.
We're never happy right here, right now.
Always either longing or nostalgic.
Maybe one day we'll learn to appreciate what God's given us today.
Where He's placed us and who He's made us, right here and right now.